Quote of The Day

"Something that we think it's good for us is not necessarily the best for us. God has the best plan"

-Nixie Devina-

Short Post

What does the apologize for, if you treat me such in the past ?? Thank you for hurting me again. Thank you for any sweet words you have given to me. Thank you for all lies, A ! May God make you aware soon how i really feel this way ! :)

Quote of The Day

"Make peoples around you happy, that's the reason why you deserve to be happy"

-Nixie Devina-

Take & Shoot

am just tryin my 'new toy'. yaaay! finally parents bought me new camera. thank you mommy. thank you daddy. i love you both ! ;D

Fun Us -Part 2

so happy at Malang Tempo Doeloe Festival 2011. and the photos are still continued. yaay! ;)

Fun Us

Came to Malang Tempo Doeloe Festival 2011 with girlfriends and boyfriends. Had so much fun there altought without wearing old costume..:)

Nice Saturday Night with you, guys ! ;)

Quote of The Day

"If you got a trust, don't lose it. If you got a love, don't abuse it. If you got a chance, don't waste it. Because everything can be change just because a small deeds"

-Nixie Devina-

That's It

that's problem when we are getting attached to someone older. when they're moving to higher step, you must be willing to lose them. you don't even know whether you can meet again or not. big question spinning in my head. haaaaaa......:(

Quote of The Day

"Sometimes what we say will be different with what we feel trully inside. Feelings will never can be deceived"

-Nixie Devina-

I Thought Of Thinking Of Thanking You

Couldn't find the nice way. To say I'm leavin' today. Tried to write a letter. But curse words kept getting in the way. There has to be a nice way. To tell you how much I hate. The way you walk and talk and live and breathe and your very face.

I'm trying to spare your feelings. To tell you that I wish that you would die. That'd just be wrong of me.

At first I was just gonna leave. Let you wake up suddenly. And see that I'm no longer there. But instead just for a laugh. I left your apartment trashed. And this CD on the stairs. When you wake up and turn it on you will hear this song and by that time I'll be long gone.

That I dedicate to you. That I dedicate to you. That I dedicate to you.

So this is my goodbye song. Thanks for nothin' you. So this is my goodbye song that I dedicate to you. This is your song. Hope you enjoy it..

(Neyo-Goodbye)

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Do download here if you want to own this song

what a great song to explain what i really feel right now !!! :)

I Say Bye-Bye

today..
this is the day when all my seniors waiting for. this is the day when everything will be started. yeah! today the graduation was announced all over Indonesia. fortunately all my seniors at Senior High School 100 % graduate this year. alhamdulillah. and it's mean including You.

i'm terribly sorry to not giving you congratulations directly, either from mention on twitter or via SMS. for sure, i didn't know why after we made a good connection a few times ago, we seems like back to old condition. i recently read on your timeline about your feelings and i can conclude what you really feel. the point are you-still-in-love-with-her. hmmm...

that's okay. no matter what are your feeling, irrespectively in negative side, but i just want to say to you once again. congratulations for you! congratulation for graduating High School! it almost 2 years since we met for the first time, since we made a relationship until we broke up. and soon you will leave high school and we never know will we meet in another time ?! we will never know. i just know you are the best. the best ex-boyfriend. although you are perfectly made me hurt the most. thank you for the sweet memories. thank you for everything. hmm anyway, thank you for 15th April 2011. at least i can feel closer with you in the rest of your High School time. i will never forget it. i hope we can meet each others one day. amen. if God created you're not for me, i wish i find a better replacement of you. but honestly i'm still not willing of it :')
i hold dear you my 'big' brother, i hold dear you my ex-boyfriend, i hold dear you, A :)

Song & Foods

Happy Saturday, guys !

On Playlist : Party Rock Anthem-LMFAO
Party rock is in the house tonight.. Everybody just have a good time. And we gonna make you lose your mind.. Everybody just have a good time..

anyway, just spent my saturday night in my home and i felt like my mom knew that Saturday will be flat without any foods on. it seems like an eating party, but it's not. enjoy it in front of TV, while talking each other, and making some jokes. what a nice atmosphere around my whole family :)

so, let me tell you what's food existing in my house tonight. hehehe
1. Bakwan Jagung
2. Botok tempe
3. Chicken Soup
4. Tempe Penyet (This is really really yummy food. You have to try it)
5. Capcay
6. Cheese Terang Bulan or sometimes we called it martabak manis.

Yum yum yum... Alhamdulillah :)

P.S : it has been 4 days my car still in repairing because sunday tragedy. so sad to know it. hiks..

Stay Calm, It Only Hums, It Doesn't Harm

tonight, i went out for a while to shopping center with my cousin, drove my car by my self without guided by. yea i understand, i'm not a smart driver yet. i just can drive for a few days. but with my courage i try to go around this city. i felt really shocked to know that i bump a front side of my car on the wall in parking area. oh Gosh! both of us were being a center attention there. then the security approached us, and asked "are you a new driver?". then i said "yes, Mr". then the security lead me to go the right way. i can't imagine what i have to say to my dad and my mom. i'm scared if they're gonna angry to me. i think it over and over again, WHAT SHOULD I DO NEXT ?! haaaaaa... my cousin said "stay calm. it usually happen for a new driver". then we were back to home, and i said to my dad honestly that i bump the car. and he just a little shocked then gave me many suggestion when driving a car. alhamdulillah. and what happened today will be a very valuable lesson for me ahead particularly to be a good driver. thank you Ayah to not scolding me....:)

Behind Of

found pretty much photos when my friends and I made a film for IT task last year on my folders. behold on the back of scene. so much fun on many places; such at MTD (Malang Tempo Dulu), matos, and.... my room. hihih :)








my favorite snack at MTD : Es Gandul. it cost me less than 2 thousands rupiahs. made from ice which compacted and gave by liquid sugar around. can't wait for MTD this year and es gandul is a must to buy. sluurrrpe....;)

anyways, so sad to know that this is for the first and the last i and my friends went to MTD with (rip.) Ahmad Priyo Pratomo. he has gone to meet God, leaving us all here. hiks. we all hopefully you are piece there, Yoyok! :')

Quote Of The Day

"Life's getting hard some time. But it's getting harder when you're always thinking the problems continuously without thinking a way to out :)"

- nixie devina -

Confession

Finally i used to change my header with something new...Heheh

what do you think guys about my new display looks like ? like usual i made it with photoshop cs3 :D

i know i'm not creative enough to make a nice design. i know i'm not smart enough to use the smart programs, such a photoshop.
sometimes i'm finding out literature on other blogger user, finding out on google, and etc. i'm just trying to make my own way. i don't want to be a copycater.
i'm better make a bad design than have to duplicate something from others.
will felt very different when we're making ours and we can be more appreciate to our creation. so guys, let be our self! :)

Low Calorie Please

my new favourite snack : Soyjoy


and my favorite flavour is Hawthorn Berry. just ate 2 bars during break time at school. nice and yummy..:)


that's good for you who still wants to eat snack, without make your weight go up..:)

anyway, it has been 2 days my speedy internet connection could not be use. sigh. and now i use my modem to connect it. seems like empty feelings without post something on my blog. heheheh

Goodnight! :)

Listing Down

hi, guys! how's your life ? :)

yesterday i posted some of joy on my April that made me have to be grateful more and now just thought to listing down my expectation on this May...here it goes!

• buy a new camera (actually i want it since March, buuuuuuuut my parents still pending it. hiks)
• can drive car slighterly, by my self, and without guide by father.
• pray 5 times everyday
  
• wake up at midnight for doing Tahajud
• fasting on sunday and thursday
  
• focus on my study
• get a good score in school affairs
• better than April
• earn more money. amin amin amin !
• get a side-job. particularly project in writing affairs, i'll be happy whoever take me to make a collaboration together. in the end of our project i ask for salary, of course. heheh ;)
• be more patient & understanding
• still be close and closer with A :)
  
• A can granted national exam with a good score
  
• don't have pretty much problems like on April. sigh
  
• always smile
• my weight keep on 46 kg. this is unbelievable, you know ? :D
• give easier in everything
• always near with Allah
• make my parents proud of me..:)

well, actually there's still expectations more. but i decide to stopping it right now..:)

f.y.i: spend my whole sunday with family in Selecta, Batu. did swim and i felt like swimming on the Alaska. really really cooooold. brrrr! then we back to home i lay down on my bed. this is a tiring day. and when i woke up my mother offering me yet guava juice. yum yum yum !

what a lovely day on the first date of May! :)