I'm A Mess

i never realized that i'm still, yeah i'm still feeling the same. to my schoolmate but he's older than me. boy, you really really made me so crazy. there are unforgettable moment between us. and i never can forget it. thankyou for 3 month from 17th july 2009 until 7th november 2009 :'(
oh my God ! why do i still on this feeling ? why you don't erase my feeling to him ? why i am sure if he's my destiny ? what's that we called it with one proccess to be a mature woman ?
i've listened to Escape The Fate's Song-Harder Than You Know. i don't know how much i've listened for. this song is sooo touchy moreover for situation like this, espescially when the lyrics said "are we just lost in time ? i wonder if your love's the same" :(
are you feeling it too, dear ? have you ever been feeling like me ? i imagine if someday i will tell him about my feeling. no matter what he say after i say it. the important things here are trying to be honest. with the own feeling. and maybe it connect to be honest with the other person.