The Hottest Match In The End of 2010

i watched the final leg 1 AFF cup between Indonesia and Malaysia. it was soooo really really made me nervous, made me always screaming, made me aaah everything. in fact, Indonesia and Malaysia full of controversy. it not just in football, but also in everything. yaaah as an Indonesian, i confess Malaysia were a COPY CAT ! they claimed reog ponorogo, batik and etc as them culture.
and tonight in this final and unfortunately it held in Malaysia, they treated Indonesian Player roughly. not only that, a supporter of Malaysia used a lasser to disturbed indonesian player. it became the first trending topic on Twitter. until the time ended the score was 3-0 for malaysia. HEY MALAYSIAN, WHETHER YOU PROUD WHEN YOU BECAME THE WINNER WITH THE CHEATING AND ALL OVER THE WORLD KNEW IT ??okay, me as an indonesian will tell you a greetings because you became the winner tonight. see ya at Gelora Bung Karno, Senayan next Wednesday. Wait for our surprise, and it's gonna be your biggest nightmare ! thanks for the Lasser, thanks for the cheating tonight !

Stressed Out

i'm so stressed out in this holiday. how's not ? i won't have an aerobics and cardio exercise for a week because now i'm at my grandma's house, in tulungagung. you know what ? first day i'm here, from morning until night i'm eating too many foods and i'm not manage the time to eat them. hahaha. so i prepare my self to not being shocked when my weight is up hahahahaha :D

Happy Holiday, Everyone.

since today i've started both holiday school and X-Mas day. but i'm not celebrate the chrismast. i'm a moslem :) i just need a holiday to refresh all, no matter in order for what. the most important things are getting the holiday. hahaha :D
today my family plans to go to my grandma's house. hmm ? it's gonna be an ordinary holiday. actually i want to go to Jogja. but it seems my parents not accepted it. they are still busy with them work. so, the holiday will not longer for them. now, i'm preparing to this vacation time. and i prepare some of this :

1. some clothes. of course !
   
2. underwear. UPS ! :D
   
3. swimsuit, possibly
4. the last thing and it should not be forgotten are....... My Silly Notebook+Modem+Mouse+Headphone(because my life is here. without these goods my life seems so darker. hahaha)

okay for the last i'll tell you once more. HAPPY HOLIDAY ! wishing in this holiday can give an incredible experience, eventhough it's gonna be an ordinary holiday for me. but maybe not for you ;)

I'm A Mess

i never realized that i'm still, yeah i'm still feeling the same. to my schoolmate but he's older than me. boy, you really really made me so crazy. there are unforgettable moment between us. and i never can forget it. thankyou for 3 month from 17th july 2009 until 7th november 2009 :'(
oh my God ! why do i still on this feeling ? why you don't erase my feeling to him ? why i am sure if he's my destiny ? what's that we called it with one proccess to be a mature woman ?
i've listened to Escape The Fate's Song-Harder Than You Know. i don't know how much i've listened for. this song is sooo touchy moreover for situation like this, espescially when the lyrics said "are we just lost in time ? i wonder if your love's the same" :(
are you feeling it too, dear ? have you ever been feeling like me ? i imagine if someday i will tell him about my feeling. no matter what he say after i say it. the important things here are trying to be honest. with the own feeling. and maybe it connect to be honest with the other person.

Two in One

what's in your opinion when you looked at this photo ? :p

hahaha. it was soooo strange, right ? i added the computer keyboard in my laptop. haha. i miss this keyboard. because for a long time after my computer was hit by lightning a few years ago i never used big keyboard anymore like this. in other ways, my keyboard laptop was so small if compared with keyboard usually. nevertheless i'm still loving my laptop bcause it was a gift from my dad when my 16th birthday. thank you for this, dad ! :)

Eye Don't Lie

hei, today my school held the Dhamysoga Music Festival or usually we called it with DMF. and it was sooooo interesting. moreover, starring with Good Boy Jimmy --an indie band from Malang--
although almost all bands played screamo music. i've wondered if there is a band who played an acoustics music. i think it'll be more interesting, more able to hear, and more sweet, exactly :)
during the DMF, me and my friends sat on the bench beside basket court. all students in dhamysoga joined in this place to watched the bands including my Ex, mr. A ;) he always fro in the court because he'll performed in this event. so my eyes always centered on him. and we were hide to see each other. hahaha. okay to be honest, Eye Never Can Be Lie, right ? hbu ? ;)
and then i remember this is maybe the last DMF for him. because yaaa you know, insyaAllah next year he's gonna be graduate the high school. uuu :( and today will probably the last for us hide seeing. hahaha. and i'm gonna miss this moment, A. :) i love you big body, eventhough you're in love with her and untill now i dont know who is she, somone whom you love.

Trending Topics-I Have No Respect

"I have no respect for the people who take my happiness. eventhough actually this people is kind, this people is beautiful or handsome, and this people has everything, but i don't care. i just know that this people has taken my happiness !"

Let Me Lost My Fat

HALLOOOH, PEOPLE. How's life ? :)
start from last saturday i've got a cardio exercise. usually i just get an aerobic exercise on friday and sunday. but after i thought twice it might be more interesting if i change to get a cardio exercise on saturday. bcause i've bored this exercise. how not ? i've got an aerobic class almost for 2 years since i was third grade on junior high school. haha. cardio seems like a hip hop dance. yeah dance ! i love dancing sooo much after i tried this exercise. hehe :)
aerobics have made me to lost my fat, i think. now my weight range around 46 kg. it's more than my weight ideal that should be around 49,5 kg. hahaha. even when Fasting Month (Bulan Puasa) my weight down to 43 kg. are you believe ? yeah ! you should believe me. i honestly. hahaha :D

The Time

hei, this is 20th december 2010. it's mean that 11 days towards 2011. WOW ! i didn't realize how quickly the time passes by. too many things i haven't got in 2010. too much time passed in vain.arrrgh essentially i don't wanna enter 2011 yet. in other reason (like my post before) 2011 i'll move to third grade and he'll graduate the high school. and probably i'll never meet him anymore. can't never to see him anymore :(
i don't know what i have to do. i don't know how to stop the time, so it can be stuck on 2010. i know it just my fantasy and it is really really sooooooo stupid think. ya Allah. what should i do now ? :(

Being Successful

today, the score of final exam are showed in front of the class. wow ! i'm soooooo really really shocked when i looked to my score. it's right if not of all my score are bad. but i'm dissapointed to my self a little bit.
i remember some day my mom give me an advice. she tells me that being succesful is not easy. and it was true. i'm just afraid if i cannot reach my dreams. to be the one of student in Gajahmada University or in STAN. i'm just afraid if i cannot make my parents proud to me. although i've studied before, maybe my prayer is less. it can be the reason why i'm still get the bad score even i've studied before. okay ! start now, i'll increase to pray 5 times everyday, try to get up at a midnight to do sholat tahajud. bismillah ! hope i can do it and i can be a succes person who can make my parents proud to me. amien. insyaallah :)

A Sweet Song

this is the song lyrics of Colbie Caillat. the tittle are begin again. it's one of my favorite song because i think the lyrics is sooooo touchy but it doesn't show the desperation like other song. it show for us if we have to move on instead, eventhough we're broken-hearted. okay ! check it out this lyrics now :)

I can't get you out of the sunlight
I can't get you out of the rain
I can't get you back to that one time
'cause you and me are still recovering

So let's just try to cool it down
The fighting is feeling like flames
And let's just try to slow it down
We crash when we race

Oh this is not the way that it should end
It's the way it should begin
It's the way it should begin, again

No - I never wanna fall apart
Never wanna break your heart
Never wanna let you break my own
Yes - I now we said a lot of things
That we probably didn't mean
But it's not to late to take them back

So before you say you gonna go
I should probably let you know
I never knew what I had
I never knew what I had

See, I look for you in the morning
It's that where my mind always goes
And I can't wait to get to the evening 'cause that's when I want you the most

But I know it now
I wish I would have known before
How good we were

Is it too late to come back
Or is it really over
If its really over
Then this is not the way that it
Should end its the way it should
Begin its the way it should begin, again.

High School Euforia !

oh yaa ! i forgot to tell you a nice story about us.

yesterday me and my 3 idiots (hahaha. i'm laughing out louds) went to movie theatre in Dieng 21. the final exam finished yesterday. so, we were hanging out together with watched the movie. 1 week ago, my father (mr. ento) got 4 vouchers to watched in all of 21 or XXI cinema all over Indonesia (too much, i think) from his office.taken from evien blog :p

so, yesterday i used the voucher to watched the movie with 3 idiots. wkwk. it was sooooooo nicely to spent the time with them after final exam! love you, girls ! haha :D

Should I Be Happy ??

good morning, dude !
hope today will be better than yesterday yaa :)
hei look at the picture below :p

this photo is unclear, i think. on twitter i've made a tweet that says "ga belajar blas buat uas hari ini" and then a few minutes letter someone (you know who !) retweeted my status :p
hmmm... i think you've known what i mean. this is about us. between me and my ex-boyfriend. eheemm. haha.
but actually it happens ordinary. nothing special, right ? this is the rare moment between us. he retweet or mention me on twitter rarely and me too. yaaa to maintain self-esteem laaaah :p but i don't know why, now he retweeted this. i was being a big headed now because of this. hmm okay i'll stop tell you about it. hahaha :p

Lesson of This Day

i think this is the best quotes for today. depends on what i've been obtained. my nanny, buk anis and her daughter, antik will doesn't work and help my family for 1 week. wow ! it's really really really bad. i think. because everyday they always help me and all of people in my house to wash the clothes for example. and then sweep the floor, clean up my lovely house. but now and for the next 1 week they cannot do that because both of them was sick. maybe too tired. and now i can take a lesson from that. don't be too depend all to the nanny. because someday, we can't know the time, they sometimes cannot work as usual because any reasons. and you have to work it all by your self. so, start it now, i'll study to do all i can do by my self.

okay. goodnight, people ! :)

talking about mandarin ? what da ?

good morning, people !
i'm so really really happy. my exam will finish 2 days again. wohooow :)
but today i have to fight with sociology and mandarin. oh-my-God. it was very terrible -,-
i've studied mandarin for 2 years, but i cannot do that. translating, reading hance or blah, writing, basically i cannot everything about mandarin. i don't know what the reason. but i think that's because THE TEACHER.
now i'll explain about mandarin's teacher. her name is ah i forgot, i don't care about it hahaha. actually she's patiently, BUT me and my friends doesn't like her voice. it heard like a mouse or in indonesian is "cempreng". it's very NOISY for us, right ? absolutely YES !
i'm orry Miss ! i tell it depends on the fact :p
okay all is over. i wanna prepare for school today. ciao !

My Besties, My Classmates

i'm so grateful to have besties like you guys. we joined in one class, XI Social 2 Senior High School 5 Malang. even sometimes we are in different views but we're still can laugh and laugh again. you can make my life so colourful. and now i will announce to you the awards for the best friends goes to you, girls ! :)

DITA CARISSA DEVINA
i call her with evien. she's so cute, creative, and sensitive (sometimes. hehe). do you know, me and evien always in a the same school since we are in elementary school. it's mean that we are together for 11 years. wow ! can you believe it ? hahaha :D











RIFFANI PRADIPTA
this is it ! the real of Cemul. hahaha. you can comment her attitude from this photo. yeah, absolutely she likes eating very very much. i'm not shocked that she is the biggest between 4 of our. haha. i remind you to don't be forget to get an aerobic class every friday and sunday with meh, cemul ! hahaha :D









and the last is
ELISA CAROLINA
i never realize that she was so really funny. she looks so different, low profile, and blah ! basically she was so funny. haha. me and elisa have the same taste in music, especially. sometimes we share and change about the newest song, or a gossip about the singer. she always make me laugh with her behaviour. hahaha :D

Hei Monday

assalamualaikum. good morning people. wow, this morning is very cold.
how was your sleep ? hmm today is monday, right ? oh my God ! i have to fight with my exam. and today the subjects are geography and religion. you know i haven't study religion. because i think i can answer it with logics. hahaha. it sounds bad :D
last night i slept at 1 am. don't be shocked ! because in last afternoon i slept from 5 pm until 8 pm. hahaha. like a buffalo ? absolutely YES ! wkwkwk
and now i just woke up at 4 am and will run as normal routine. huuh. keep spirit, Nixie ! i believe you can get through it ! cemenjetz ! don't be lazy ! okay i'm taking off and gonna take a hot shower. chao ! see you later when i arrive at home again after school :)

Please, Make Up My Own

can i have a design blog like in this website > www.shabbyblogs.com ??
i really want to make up my blog like that.
yesterday i told that i want to make my blog like Diana Rikasari's blog. but now after i found shabbyblogs and looked at these design i want to make it up as fabulous as shabbyblogs design.
to all people, wherever you are, especially for a web designer, please ! oh please make a blog design special for me. oh please ! it look like going insane, right ? hahaha :D

Lets Play With The Sentences

inspiring from the word to my friend in twitter, now i want to make some quotes by me, exactly. and the words are at least or in indonesian it's mean setidaknya. i think the sentences can be such an expectation, and i hope it will be real someday. amin.
and now lets make as much as possible quotes and don't forget to pick at least in your sentences. you can try in your home. lets make the words now ! :)

• if i can't be like you at least i can being my self. who more uniquely, more funny, and maybe more enjoy this life. haha :D
• alhamdulillah. now you don't have a girl friend yet, at least there's still a chance for me to be with you again. LOL ! i'm kidding :p
  
• if you can't be mine for now, at least i can take you by my side someday and it'll be forever till the end of time :) hehe. maybe this is my favorite quotes. i don't care if it shows i'm a stupid girl or not. hahaha :D it just playing with the sentences, guys !
  

and how about you ? ;)

yeah, it was saturday !

hello people ! long time no post in this blog. yeah i'm sorry because i got an exam in my suckhool. ckck.
in this lovely occasion, because it was saturday i will fill up my blog haha. in your head maybe this post is random. yeah as usual i have no idea for now. HAHAHA.
okay. on this night i promise. yeah i promise i will give you some story. dadaaah. haha :D

Finally

yeahs. i'm so glad today. to the point, my laptop was come back again after for a long time was fixed by an ahli komputer. wakaka. i forgot what is ahli komputer in english :p
okay i will enjoy my time with my laptop.

I LOVE YOU MY SILLY LAPTOP :*

No Title

as my promise this morning, i will post a blog (again) when i arrive at my lovely room. and now i have already in my room. yeah ! :)
i prepared for exam tomorrow but it was not for a long time. because i'm so hhh with mathematics. you know what i mean laah. :p
and now i'd rather post in this blog than study mathematics HAHAHAHA :D
hmm may be all is over. to be honest, i don't have any idea. i'm gonna sleep. pray for my exam tomorrow. okay chao !

Libur Tapi Nggak Libur

selamat pagi, manusia (hah?)
baru aja bangun dari tempat tidur nih. dan langsung buka laptop. nyalain internet. buka blog. dan sekarang taraaaa.... posting. apa deh ya -,-
sekarang di indonesia lagi tanggal merah jadi ya tau sendirilah ini hari libur. but it's not for me. huh ! you know why ? TOMORROW I HAVE A FINAL EXAM. OH-MY-GOD. the first subject are mathematics and ah i forgot. and today me and my family will go to my grandma's house and i'm not study yet -,- ckck
okay the post is enough. i will continue later, when i arrive in my lovely room again. chao !

Happy Monday

helloooh dude. i'm back with a happiness :p
the rain is falling down in outside. it might be a good time for sleep. i just laying down in my bed, and close my eyes, but i can't sleep. grrrrh -___-
so now -to waste my time- i will tell you a few story. about the school today.
today is monday. and you know, monday often be a fuckin days. but it might not for today. why do i think like that ? because my lovely school was end at 11.30 am. wohoooow. it really a rare moment for smala-sma negeri 5 malang.
i do love you sooooo much, SMALA. but if the school time end before 12.00 pm. hahahaha :D

A Meaningful Smile

heyya all. good night. how was your sunday ? it's a second time i type a story. oh no ! it is not just a story. it is something that very friendly in teenager life. psst...actually this is a note from my facebook. but in facebook are indonesian version. and now i try to translate with english by my self. i wanna be able to use english better. it is my way. hehe :p okay ! i will start it now.
have you ever meet person who laugh in outside, but inside h/she actually fell the pain ? or may be your self doing like this ? it's very terrible. sometimes we have to hide a sadness with 'an act' smile, so other people doesn't know what we feel right now.
because all emotion can't be show everytime, we have to manage that. don't be a selfish person ! you want other people always care about you. for example when your friends come to you and then you just give his/her a bad smile. please remember : people who have a life problem is not only you !
a mature should be manage his/her self well, such manage an emotion. it mean there's a time to show an emotion, but also there's a time to push it down. thus, that is a reason why sometimes there are a people who always smile although she/he have a problem. s/he is not crazy, but it mean this people can manage his/her emotion well.
now, please say to our self we certainly could live it all quite. be positive thinking, don't always negative ! :)

This Is It !

good afternoon, fellas !
to the point, i'm so glad today. finally i found something what i want since long ago. yap ! can change the template with a cool design. it might happen because i'm too `stupid`. i should know a way to change it since loooong ago. but in fact this occured accidentally. when i opened google. wohoo. but i was so lucky ! hheheh :p

Madness

This is some `strange` picture of me. It was taken by my crazy friends. Thank you evien, elisa, and riffani. I love you all, Guys! Muahaha :D

Elisa said : This is a model of katy perry song. PEACOCK ! I wanna see your peacock..cock..cock. wahaha :D

Elisa make up me with headband and necklace from a newspaper. But i feel like being a DOG, you know ! hahaha :D

i have a `tompel` beneath my nose :3

New Look !

hallo !
sebelumnya aku mau tanya nih. kalian ngerasa ada sesuatu yang beda sama tampilan blog ini nggak ? hehe. yup bener banget aku baru aja ngedesign semuanya. terinspirasi dari blognya Diana Rikasari, sang fashion blogger muda berbakat di indonesia. keren banget deh blognya. lucu. so girly !
habis buka-buka blognya dia aku jadi pengen aja buat ngebenerin blogku yg agak2 acak adul sebelumnya. walaupun sekarang masih belum beres juga sih. kendalanya tetep aja dari dulu gak berubah2. ko-nek-sHIT ! ups !
i think all is over. tomorrow i will continue to make up this blog again. hehe
i'll send my greeting to all of you who read this post. goodnight, have a sleep tightly yall ! :)

random

just wanna say it :
i don't care anymore about you. because now i know your type. and you are dangerous, boy ! fuck the past !