She Sat and Prayed

it was a day after National Exam finished. i think all have happened between us will prove from now. i couldn't explain what i really feel. i used to be closer with you. and i might be just a little worried to you.

because last night i began to feel slightly different when before the exam be held. i just knew that you're spending the night with your little brother. only that. and the rest i just guess what actually happen to you. sigh...

3 weeks mostly we spent all night long, even all day long with sending message each other. make me smile when i read your message. make me feel so warm when i could be closer with you.

i wish after you finished your exam, after you graduate high school later, we are still be closer. we can be together and forever. amin amin amin!

thank you Allah. for every blessing. for sending me a happiness around people who i love. for making me close to people who i've waited for so long :')

i really miss you, A. for every words, for every moment with you, and for every things has happened around us recently...:)

Believing The Unbelievable

Today is the fourth day National Exam be held. At first i just thought that he wouldn't send his message for me. He wouldn't give me news. And i really tolerate it. But in reality he's still sending me some message. Eventhough some time he reply a little longer.

A and I recently spent every night just switching news. I gave him a spirit and motivation to turn up his passion for facing this exam. By the way, a few days ago he asked me to encourage him because he really needed it. I certainly approve it.

We all are humans who need others help sometime. If we want to be helped others, so we have to help others too. Like a science lesson when i was on elementary. That's we called mutualism symbiosys. Connection between two or more human being that profitable each others.

So while we are still living this life, Let us be a kind person for others. and i can't imagine how lovely this universe are if all people do a good things...:)


PS : yesterday afternoon was the first day i got driving car course. my father's told me to having that course, so i can drive car bymyself, or might bring my mom to another place she wants. you know what ? despite my mom had attended this course before me, but until now she hasn't had a courage to driving it byherself. hahaha :D

Fireflies

a song which pretty much makes me feel like back to 2009. which makes me remember all when i was with you. until now that`s still being my favorite and i`m gonna play this song over and over again specifically when i miss you :)

hopefully you`ll always be my fireflies, A. like at the lyrics, because my dreams are bursting at the seams about you ;)

Pray on Sunday

Bismillah. Dear Allah,
i wish i always in the right way. give me everything the best and easiness to earn success in future. save me from any danger. get easiness in everything. i wish that he's the best for me and he's truly my destiny.

Dear Allah,
i wish all my seniors get easiness when they're doing National Exam tomorrow. i wish they're always blessings by You. i wish they're always in Your protection. and i particularly wish he's getting recovery quickly.

Dear Allah,
i wish that last Friday is not the last day for me (and for him) to meet each other. to feel togetherness. to feel warmness beside him.

Amen...

Magical Friday

Thanks God It's Friday (again)..
it has been two weeks i feel so very close to A and i wish it won't be never ends. i enjoy this atmosphere around us in remaining time before he leave senior high school.

Dear God,
today, 2 weeks ago, on the first date of April month, was a day where we started all. we were apologizing each other for all mistakes we have done. we spilled out all emotions in one night. and we started to make a good connection again.

Dear God,
a week ago, eventhough you were busy to prepare National Exam, but you were still sending me some message. told me about your condition. accompanied me on the night. and i gave you some jokes for making you felt so warm.

Dear God,
and eventually today, it's not just another day. today was a day where i woke up earlier. accompanied you for doing Tahajud. it was time to wore Batik's uniform. i had a loaf of bread for breakfast. you texted me in the morning. you picked me up to go to school together.
before i left, my mom gave me some advice and this cherry smile. my teacher teached us very enjoy. i had lunch with my friends. i went back to home with you by motorcycle. we made a lot of conversation along the road. i could smell you from back and your fragrance imprinted on my clothes. this such a sweet memories :)

you have been sick since yesterday. maybe you are too busy to prepared this exam. i know your condition. i apologize that i'm not replying your message or maybe my message has not sent yet because pending problem. but from the deepest of me i send much love and get-well-soon wishes for you. hopefully you have recovery quickly, dear! :*

Goodnight...:)